Valentines Day Troubles

my heart beats --
it pounds with resolute determination
to knock me off my feet,
and my sane reasoning is suffering complete obliteration.

my attention falters --
it escapes to warm sunshine and peaceful silence,
but this freedom quickly shatters
as something moves in. . . I am caught in the fence.

did you expect romance?
I am under the net of urgencies and stress.
what limited time, perchance,
(in my dreams) could be lengthened, stalled -- oh, I confess!

I squandered time, my squandered mind!
I traded precious hours for useless garbage -- I find
this pattern repeats -- over and over --
my Vehicle of Change is lacking a motor.